Originally Posted January 9, 2006:
Okay, so there have been no bad comments on here (yet) about the decision that my ex and I made to give M up for adoption. But, boy lately people have just been giving me an earful about it. People that don’t even matter in my life...so I just let it roll off my back.
I guess, I could have made a different choice for M. I could have terminated the pregnancy...and 10 years ago...maybe I would have, but at that point in my life, I just couldn’t. The decision to give her up for adoption hit me at a very weird time (I was 12 weeks pregnant) and I found the adoptive parents pretty easily. The first time I talked to B & J I knew that they were the parents of our baby girl. They are amazingly wonderful people. (they lost twins 5 months into their pregnancy, and then when I was 8 months pregnant they found out they were pregnant...they now have to healthy happy baby girls).
Okay...so do I have my days where I am sad and I struggle with giving up M? Yup...I sure do, but I can honestly tell you that I have never regretted it. When B & J found out they were pregnant, I worried that M would feel weird because she wasn’t their "natural" child...but that fear was quickly put to rest. Sometimes, I wonder if I could have handle raising her, but then when I take an honest look at my nutso life...I know that I did. My Ex, E, and I would never have been able to raise her together. For awhile, we could barely get along for Elmo's sake.
If anyone that visits this site ever wants to talk to me more about adoption...don’t hesitate to email me...I am an open book (obviously) and will help anyway I can.
So those are my thoughts of the day on adoption...I may add more later. I had a horrible last trimester of pregnancy...so maybe I will write about those "adventures" soon.